I'm undertaking a big step in my life. Every time I go back to school, it is with fewer things and then I come home and am in a filled room. I get used to the sparse living and the clutter bothers me; so the past couple summers I have been trying to get rid of my childhood, so to speak. This summer marks the biggest change. Before I do my first internship in something completely foreign, I'll basically be cutting ties with most of my past. Prior to now, I cleaned out my computer of past saved conversations with old girlfriends and high school diary, as well as my hobby of collecting news stories and information of suicide. Then I removed many of my childhood toys. Now I'm fully getting rid of my old toys and some books and clothes. I just microwaved my CD conversations with my psychologist from high school - letting go of a past me without ever revisiting it. Old summer camp art projects will be photographed and trashed. I need to stop living in the past, stop focusing on the future, recognize the present. I think this is the best way to transition myself, to what I don't know. It will help my parents when they move and I'm in the Peace Corps, anyway.
No regrets.
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