As I get closer to the point I will be moving, I have been letting certain people know early. The ones who see me regularly get watery eyes when I tell them, and that surprises me. I have been called a bright spot, and told that I have a "winning" personality. A gap will be left.
I don't feel this way. When I reunite with someone, I communicate in a way that creates a feeling as if no time has passed, or so I've been told. I don't believe in time, and perhaps my lack of feeling is because I fully expect to see everyone again one day, and it will be like no time has passed. The feeling of loss is for those who believe they are experiencing a real loss. The loss I feel is not for the leaving, but for the possible futures missed at having not left.
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