I'm not really as fast as I seem, mentally. Blogging and messaging are very nice ways to communicate because they give you time to come up with a response. The other person might assume you're browsing the web when you're actually finding the perfect witty, "movie" response. Though, I am kind of quick. I make sure to expose myself to as many tidbits as I can from many different fields. By doing this I can call forth movies, music, art, stories, news and so on so that I can find a place in almost any conversation. I seem quick because I can make a reference, usually something the other person doesn't know about, and have reasoning behind why I brought it up. That's the key: not only having a stockpile, but also preparing for if its relevancy is questioned.
I'm very slow in everyday life, however. If encountered by some obstacle or new possibility I need time to just be still and let my mind work through it. Even very small things elicit over-reaction simply because I haven't fully accepted it. It's an unconscious lashing out in tone of voice, and then I realize all the ways around the obstacle and wonder why I was so upset. Another unfortunate aspect is the forgetting of the incidence when others involved don't. Memory, or lack of, still seems like a blessing and curse.
I've also started reading another person's blog: http://www.logcabineer.com/
I think the author is a man in Finland, but I'm not sure. Seeing his pictures, the videos he makes of the landscape or his land with a record player running in the foreground, fishing, and cooking, it all just makes me want to go to that semi-independent form of living, in a cabin with a couple dogs and antique cookware and devices. I'm not sure what the guy does for a living. He hunts a lot and visits his somewhat near neighbors and local diners. Maybe he trades the meat he collects. I'm just envious of the way he's living and owning land with a lake and abandoned dwellings from others who quit the 9-5.
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