Flashlapse

"The key is to know a lot about many things, and to appear to know very little."
This way people underestimate, reveal things they would normally hide, and not cause a bother in their search for information. Everyone likes the occasional opportunity to prove themselves well-versed and mentally powerful. Information becomes a valuable currency.

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I guess I've been tired lately. I pause a lot more during the day, like an instant power-down or daydream. Something comes over me and I get the "bad rum feeling." You know, when you have too much of a cheap-tasting thing and instead of a shiver of disgust you get a light numb feeling. So I'll get this feeling or hear a certain pitched note in some music or maybe a sequence of notes, and it reminds me of my dreams.
I have a certain visual which I associate with my dreams. To make it immediately visual I'll share this painting:Any of Giorgio's paintings of simple architecture and chiaroscuro devoid of human presence are close to what I visualize. It's a simple environment but confusing because it is so unlike anything else, full of unique angles. When I have those lapses of daydream, I see this visualization and feel the nostalgia fixed to it, the nostalgia of dreaming. It's a place to explore without worry of time. It's always halfway to noon or halfway to dusk. Part of me wants to disregard what I have to do for school and take a melatonin and wander. Today I woke up and started going about my routine mechanically and a little after starting at work I wondered when I would wake up. It felt as if I were still dreaming. Perhaps a lingering effect of the melatonin? I took a larger dose last night thinking it would balance my sleep cycle again.
I've never considered the visual representation of my dreams, a symbol for them whether it matches or not. It's a recent thing so I haven't had much time to think about it or experience it. I always forget my dreams when I wake up.